Aches and pains

I had the typical mommy blues after Nash was born.  A couple of weeks of crying for no reason, feeling down, but nothing like I had after Crue was born. When I found out I was pregnant with Crue, most of my family was prepared, or at least anticipating that I would have some sort of […]

June 19, 2015

Just typing that title sends chills down my spine. This day last year, Nash died; this day my life was forever changed. This day a part of Todd and I died as well. Thinking back to Nash’s life makes me happy and sad. I was such a different person then. I was never happier. I […]

Papa Elmer

I remember the first time I met Todd’s grandpa, Elmer. I was at Sportsmans’ Bar where Todd and I met years earlier. We were only friends at the time, and I was used to seeing him and his uncles come up for a drink after hunting. I had grown to love this group of guys. […]

June 9th, 2015

On June 8th, 2015, I sat in my room crying most of the day like every other day in June so far. I sat in the Nash nook staring out the window at the bright blue sky and wanted to die. I knew tomorrow I would look at my Timehop and see my baby boy […]


June…my last weeks with Nash. You know how when there is a tsunami or hurricane warning, they advise you to seek higher ground, evacuate, or stock up on non-perishables and find the nearest shelter? That’s what June feels like to me. Only this time I have the warning; I know the storm is coming but […]