Ringing in the new year

We had planned to go to Todd’s cousin Christina’s home to ring in the new year with many of our close friends and family. I would say it was about 2:00 p.m. on December 31, 2014 when I began to have probably the worst break down I have had since Nash had passed. Worse than […]

The holidays

I always looked forward to my first Christmas as a mom. I’m the last to have children of all my brothers and sisters, and I hoped that one day I would have the chance to bring my children to all of the holiday events. I always loved seeing all my nieces and nephews get excited […]

First responder

It’s strange, to say the least, to think about someone daily you don’t even know. The day Nash died was the first time I had heard about the deputy who was first to the scene at the sitters. Todd and I were sitting with the detectives in the room at the hospital and they were […]

The Club

We all know them, the people who have had something horrible happen to them, the people that no longer have just a name, but a description – a category they are put in. When I used to talk about these people to others, I always linked the tragedy to them. For example, “You know her, […]

Planning a party

I like to think of myself as a very simple person, especially when it comes to throwing parties. I personally have never thrown one. Most of my family and friends would be surprised to know that cooking is one of my favorite things to do. With that being said, I hate cooking for people. I […]

What’s in a dream?

I’ve heard many theories on where dreams come from. I have heard that it’s a way for your loved ones who have passed away to speak to you again, almost like a port hole to the other side. I have also heard that it’s an accumulation of the many things you think about during the […]